IT LET ME ON!! And it was supposed to be broken? Well, anyhow, my life has been great! Aside from random Tim... heehee, let me explain.

So, tonight, (Monday), was the skating party, rite? It wa fun because skating is the only athletic thing I can do. Everyone luvved me because people in State College. don't. skate.

Sooo... Britnie, Tim, Lindsay, and I were sittin on the benches. Britnie, Lindsay and I are just blabbing, when Britnie starts a totally different convo with Lindsay so I say to Tim "Besides the fact that I am a 'mindless clot', why do you hate me so much?" and he shakes his head, looks at the floor, and blinks as if it's the most obvious reason, then looks away. I told him just that and said "God, Tim, you call me mindless then you expect me to know all the answers to these damn questions you never gave me plausible answers to," I got up to get a soda in line. Afterwards, Britnie said that he said I ask too many dumb questions. Dork! Britnie asked him (he's in a band), what happened to his drummer (the dummer left), and Tim looks at her like she's so stupid and he says "Duh! he went to Delta!" and Britnie says "Er, what was his name again?" As if she'd know what the hell happened to the guy.

okay, I'm gonna do a recount of last week. Monday-thursday was chock full of socializing, preparing for trial and, er, such. Christmas shopping too! I swear, I've still got people to buy for! Steph, ABBIE(panic: i DON'T want to buy her some random dollar store crap like I got everyone else), er, Aleigha, Lindsay, I don't know if I'm going to see Maria or not around Christmas. I hope I do.

It was so funny- Bruno goes "I e-mailed Maria" and wiggles his eyebrows.

Anyway, Monday-Thursday were boring.

Friday was interesting.

That night I went downtown with Peter, Ivan, Zack, and Justin. Alone with those guys- ... was wearin a low-cut shirt and a water bra. Like normal guys they were perpetually horny. Think about it.

It still makes me sick to think of the way they treated me- mostly Peter, Ivan and Justin. I was mostly mad at Peter, because- ew. He grossed me out. He was trying to suck on my boob, didn't even ask if it was okay with me, he just lowered his head and almost was gonna do it but I said "Peter, don't do that!" and- he almost didn't listen to me.

It's my body. And, it belongs to a PERSON, not a porn star, not a THING.

We were in Metro (clothing store) and the guys had me try on this skanky dress. It had a skirt way north of the knee and way south of the neck. So I come out, and Abbie isn't there this time, all attention is on me. :suck in:, JUSTIN comes up behind me and PULLS the skirt up so the bottom is above the top of my 'lil devils' thong, IT WAS SO EMBARRASSING I COULD HAVE DIED. They were all laughing at me, I crouched down and hugged myself and Ivan comes over and starts lowering my shirt like "oooh nice tittteees" or however he classified them as, and UGH they were all laughing. I ran and hid behind a couch, and when I came back Ivan was crawlling back out from under my dressing room. I try to open it and it was locked. UGH. I had to crawl under legs first so someone didn't try and hump me (which Peter did later, btw), and Then, when I was changing, someone opened the door and there I was, my ass of all to see. they were al laughing at the fact that i was standing there practically naked. It was so embarrassing. I wanted to hide somewhere and die.

I changed out of my stuff and left the store with the guys, slightly disgruntled. Peter and Ivan put their arms around me as we walked and all was good until they started groping me. Anyway, Justin, Peter, Ivan and I (zack left), went on top of the parking lot building later on. Ivan and Peter would not get off my damn boobs, though I only told Peter to stop because i don't care about what ivan does, really. But, Peter- ew. me:"Peter, get off" five seconds later he's trying to play with my boobs again.

No one noticed I had a water bra on.

but anyway, i was like, so cold and so tired, i wanted to just- ugh... I left at ten and went home and slept, just slept...

Woke up Saturday morning at 7. Got ready, packed and such. The Bargos came around 8:30 and we were off to Pittsburgh. omg, they're the most amazing people.

Anyhow, I remember a few funny things that happened. We were walking down the street when this guy with three cute little dogs. Mrs. Bargo says "ooh! dogs are such babe magnets!!" and the guys laughs and gives her an odd look. We chat for a bit then go our seperate ways. The guy is about a block away from us when he yells "Babe magnet! I get it!" all four of us turn around and he adds "But I'm gay!" and, another man closer to us says "I'm not!"

We were laughing so hard.

Pittsburgh people, like, city people, (usc are the only messed up ones), can be so incredibly cool.

We shopped all day then Saturday night we decided to go to a movie I am not allowed to name. It was rated R. Inside the SHV theater, as we were getting snacks, I saw to kids who I remembered from my school. They were seen as geeks I think, but still moderately higher than me on the social scale. So, the bargos, me and my mom go into the theater. It's police protected. the kids are kicked out for being in there without and adult, and they're looking at me and I just kind of smile. How I hate them all.

Anyway, we ended up leaving the movie in the middle because my mom found it revolting, my incredibly conservatie and loserly mom made us all leave and Lindsay was not happy, nor was I. Those tickets were 8 bucks, man!!

After that we kinda drove around Pittsburgh, (Carsen was oddly not populated by all sorts of people as it usually is), went back to the southside house and went to sleep.

Sunday morning we got ready and left. Stopped at Starbucks, got coffee, headed for the outlets. Shopped till we dropped and went to Hoss's, which was actually a cool restaurant. Good ice cream!

Left and went all the way home back to SC with our amazing new clothes and Christmas gifts.

Watched Simpsons, did homework, went to sleep, boring stuff.

So, this morning- hmm, i refused to talk to Peter. I can barely look him in the eye, it makes me so sick. And, of course, I'm not allowed to be even slightly mad or hurt/ confused and Ivan because 1. he doesn't care and if I won't talk to him, he won't talk to me and 2. nothing. is ever his fault. :snort:

He has no idea how- damn. Just, how rude he was to me and how- he just, literally was molesting me. All I'd want is for him to apologize for exploiting me, because i dont think he realizes or cares about the way he treated me Friday, like I was an inanimate piece of plastic with boobs and an ass.

You know another thing? After the guys had gotten don molesting me, we all sat down in Panera and played truth or dare, and somehow that came to the subject of hot girls. They talked about virtually every other girl in that school, (well, why don't youfucking go molest them then), and I remember in Ben and Jerry's, ealier than that, Justin made a crack about me being a lesbian, and Ivan says something along the lines of "I think you are" or "you might be" or "i wouldn't be suprised."... and that's the only reason i guess i let him play with my boobs and stuff, I really am not a lesbian, and I guess the only way to prove it is to do that kind of thing. I know it wouldn't be a problem, there's nothing wrong with homosexuality because it's someone's personal decision that they choose for themselves, or rather, their body chooses I guess, but, I'm just not. I would know.

Anyway, I was talking about Monday? Nothing real interesting until the skating party tonite, Lisa was all over that new kid, Trevor. He was kinda cute, and Tim's friend but like, his personality was the total opposite (like, wow! My dream guy!)jk. but, Lisa wants him so Lisa gets him because Lisa is perfect and hot and nice and no guy can resist her.

But- eh, I don't know the kid at all, so whatever.

Anyway, near the beggining I was being social, but near the end I skated by myself, weaved in and out of the slower skaters in the session, like I've been doing since I was rather young. I think I'm better at it now. Tim called me a show-off. What a dick. (without a dick! haar!jk) He's just jealous because he couldn't skate worth shit and I could. So there... it was so funny, watching him skate, he was all hunched over and was wobbling and - teehee).

Peter made a reference to me and possibly expected me to say something but I didn't.

Will came eventually and one of us would take Zack's hat and the other would try and get it back to Zack. It was fun, but Will, though he skated fast, he was unstable and I was worried about hitting him and he'd fall over.

Speaking of falling over- I was dragging Ivan across the ice and I don't know how it happened but tripped, so I tripped over him and - ow- it felt like I hurt him, I hit his body with huge impact. He laughed and got up. For someone who hasn't skated since they were 6, Ivan was pretty good.

I talked to Jason, the new-but-not-new-anymore kid. He's so cool!!!! And he has a good sense of humor too.

okay- now for the important stuff. The trial. first day was today. UGH I suck!!!!!!! But, I question Hawbaker tomorrow, who admits that he's scared of me, (thank God he wasn't here today, he would've saw how much I just sucked at questioning the 4th and 5th amendment expert).

the questions that are really gonna cut deep are the psychologist questions. Lauren C. found these amazing papers, I'm so thrilled. But- we won't start calling witnesses until I'll bet mid-tuesday or Wednesday, and Lauren's is going to take a while. the judges called a recess until tomorrow, so, I'm still questioning Travis. I need to get my act together, I was totally unprepared. But- the police questions work very well.

:yawn: yah know what? I'm off to read diaires then sleep. ta-ta.

)_iz

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