THpandex4U87: i hear you're gay...which is totaly cool, i definitely do not discriminate
Waterdude 8: hahahaha
Waterdude 8: i just thought u should nkow
Waterdude 8: u were the only girl ive ever kissed
THpandex4U87: WHAT...you had a girlfriend
Waterdude 8: and i kinda liked it
THpandex4U87: didnt u have that girlfriend?
THpandex4U87: for like a year?
Waterdude 8: yeah kinda
THpandex4U87: you never kissed her? i thought you banged her?
Waterdude 8: no i just didnt want u to be suspicious of my gayness
THpandex4U87: i kissed a gay guy!
THpandex4U87: thats pretty sweet
THpandex4U87: no wonder you were so easy to talk to.
Waterdude 8: so u actually think id have a chance with a girl
Waterdude 8: like a serious gf
THpandex4U87: well... why do you want one, if you're gay?
THpandex4U87: do you maybe not knw?
Waterdude 8: i duno like after that one night we kissed
Waterdude 8: i kinda liked it
Waterdude 8: :-[
THpandex4U87: ooooooh i made you wanna be straaiighht
Waterdude 8: i think u may have converted me
ahahaha
and i thought i was all sweet until he was like, liz you're so gullible, i was never gay...so i don't know what to beleive really!
things have been crazy lately. in bad and good ways. i love matt freiji more that i can possibly explain. i love reading jessie's diary about being close to mitch and kissing him and everything, it reminds me of how i feel about matt and it makes me happy to see other people experiencing it too
4 months on sunday! !!! time just flies and i love every minute of it, there's nothing i'd change, i'd never want to be without him.
he talked for a minute or so about taking a year off next year before he went to florida...that would be amazing. in the true sense of the word. not amazing, the 7th grade definition, the only adjective ari ratner knew about anything from new abercrombie jeans to the cute new boy
amazing like fireworks in disneyland are amazing, amazing like the birth of kittens (i've seen it!)...amazing like how i feel about matt, amazing that translates into breathless astonishment
THAT amazing.
junior year has been very hard gradewise... everything is tougher. i try and keep up...i have the worst GPA i could have ever imagined myself having in my life right now. i used to get 3.8's with ease. high honor roll wasn't something i really worked towards, it just happened because i was good at school.
but things are so different now... i'm barely hanging on and it's horrible. what's worse is, i don't know how to fix it. i've BEEN trying...i started doing all my math homework and i've been acing ...LITERALLY strong A's, every test in German- lowest was a 94%. somehow I still have a C in both classes. It's so frustrating and I can't go to my parents because ...going to them for help, you already have to know what your solution is...it's basically only done for brownie points so they know i am going somewhere.
well, atleast i got an 1120 on the PASTs. the first two added together right? i was pissed cos i got a 63 in the writing but it doesn't even count. 52...52...63. oh damn.
52 plus 63 is 1320..?? maybe this is why i have a 32 i cant addddd
i've been working a lot lately. it will be nice to have money again
and it's also nice when people do not hackle me about "what do you DO with your money? seriously liz." why do you GIVE a fuck when i'm broke? because you can't "borrow" it then never pay me back like you have so many other times? it kind of makes me happy to have no money, atleast when I get a buck or two it can stay mine.
my financial business...is...mine. and only mine.
and so is the SOURCE of my income, which also happens to be a wonderful place with wonderful people who make me happy everytime i go.
well, anyhow...christmasss is almost here and i get to go shopping friday cosa my nice big paycheck:-). (ive been broke for sooo long, it makes me so happy)
i guess i have nothing else to say really...i must work on an english assignment now, before konking out..let's hope mom lets me drive again tomorrow

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