I would have written sooner but mom caught me and kicked me off

I was writing an important email too...

Well, soon I'll have to do my daily 'force mysle to do 75 curl-ups' as usual.

I WANT ABS

Anyway, you know all throughout the day I think of things.... all my internal struggles and just stupid things that happen that I should write in my diary...well, here's a list:

How I want Maria back as a friend but don't want to admit it because she'll remind me how it's my fault, though SHE was the one that wasted her time writing that nasty e-mail.

How I want to be with Chris, if only for a few seconds, just to be with him...

How I pretended to ask this loser out. Britney and I were laughing and he just stood there, stuttering. It was hilarious.

How I look at the photo frame Maria gave me with pictures of happy yesterdays. It makes me wonder if she did that so I'd suffer... but somehow I am forced to think the opposite.. Maria would never do that

How I wonder, if Maria was so mad, the perfect revenge would be to tell Chris to read my diary. There we go. Instant hell for me.

How mck, I really don't know if i like him at all, or if I was just lookin for some way to get over Chris. I CAN'T get over Chris. I just can't resist that, so... ya know the old saying, if you can't beat 'em, join 'em.

How I want nice abs .... i'm physically fit and all but I wanna flaunt a little! (JK)

How random little sixth graders keep liking me, and they're really annoying.... They remind me of my little brother for crying out loud!

that's about it.

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