i wish matt still cared and didnt just seem to pretend like he does, he doesnt really give a shit
he doesn't even listen to me, he justtalks to other people who are around him and we're always aorund his friends and if we're not then he wants to have sex.
love???!?! love is me giving him rides to school, from work, bringing him food, listening to his problems and wanting so bad for him to be happy, wanting to do anything to make that possible.
love isn't ignoring me on the phone and not seeming to care when i have a problem or when im sad, and i care SO MUCH when he is, or when he's sick, or anything
and he doesnt even try to call back anymore
he doesnt care to come after me because i guess we just suck now. we fight sometimes and it's horrible. and for the first time i wish i'd never fallen in love with him. even through the cheating-
the cheating!
don't even get me started...
i thikn im going to call him now, possibly we need a break.

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