so much has gone down in the past few days
sort of.
i wish people would stay out of my relationship with matt, and keep away from him. i wish caitlin and megan hill would just disappear and stop thinking they're awesome because goins knows they're sluts so he calls them. megan makes it sound like they're over there all the time and they're NOT. they're there for two seconds then they leave...she goes on about how she sees goins' GTO on nights that it wasn't even there. caitlin still insists matt asked her to give him head. she's so gross and ugly, and i don't beleive her at all. why do they make so many things up?
the reason i locked this is because caitlin, being the awesome person she is, is now threatening to print this out and show it to the school. hahah that... is just so retarded. who does that?? really, get a life outside of MINE. stop making things up about my boyfriend, stop being such a bitch to me then so sweet to him. stop thinking you know him! megan honestly thinks she knows matt better than I do...he's my motherfucking boyfriend of 6 months, i know him better than ANYONE. he DOES hate caitlin, he hates everything about her, they are not friends. megan needs to shut the fuck up.
anyway, now that is off my chest. a college student is staying with teddy and i while mom and dad are on their little vacation in a week. she's pretty cool and probably won't care about much, and she's the kind of person i can see my friends and i reasoning with to get what we want. i'll definitely have the car for parties/sleepovers.
so andrew from work. i sposed i oughta talk about him because he's been on my mind lately. when matt and i were having some serious issues, i started talking to him a lot. he even stopped by ed's, like right after i left on friday..because i had called him. it sucked i wasn't there, and he called me asking if i was going to come back out. i talked to him yesterday for a while at work. he's just really, really cool and rather attractive. he's anitsocial, but you know, i kind of like that. if i were dating him, i wouldn't have to fight for time alone with him like i do with matt.
so yea. matt and i had problems and it felt like the end was really near... but things are a lot better now. i couldn't break up with him if i thought it was even the right thing, he means a LOT to me and is really important to me.
but now i have this crush on andrew. i really like talking to him, he's one of those people i can be really comfortable around. he's really interesting too, he knows a lot of random things about random things. he's just one of those people i want to see more of every time i talk to him. but i have matt. so let's hope andrew doesnt just talk to me for ass. because i actually think he's cool and wouldn't mind being friends with him. but if matt wasn't in the picture, i wouldn't mind more...
or you know, president roosevelt had this little side relationship. where they didn't have a sexual relationship, they just talked a lot. and spent a lot of time together.
i feel like the "time together" part is lacking.
valentine's day was just wonderful though. he took me out to Chili's and we had a nice dinner, and went back to his place. we went to his room and made out for a while...we never do that. it's either...head or sex right away. but we just..passionately kissed for quite some time and he really got into it and it was AWESOME, AMAZING...nothing short of that. it was so dark in his room, and he was so warm, i love putting my hand on his stomach. he said something under his breath.."i like it when you feel me"...when i was just putting my hands all over his upper body. i love what a great reaction i can get from him when i touch his side just lightly. I've never kissed someone and felt it in my entire body like when I really kiss him.
and then there is my good awesome friend from work named marc. i love the guy,he's always there and supportive. he says:

Fearsum87: hows andrew
THpandex4U87: haha oh man
THpandex4U87: i have two men marc
THpandex4U87: i have matt who is like a rollercoaster
THpandex4U87: straight on the ground or high in the sky
THpandex4U87: and for all the things in between, there's andrew

that's really how it feels sometimes..!
but marc is mad cool and i think i wanna chill wtih him, maybe sunday or something. he's just great to talk to, we talk about our love lives a lot and give each other advice.

that's whats been on my mind lately... matt, andrew, and what i am doing this weekend, which i don't know. school should be on my mind, but it's not..so fuck it. i'll do my assignments then not give one extra thought to them.

i think hatchet is gonna take me and some friends to ed's on friday, but who knows. SATURDAY IS ME AND MATT'S 6 MONTH!! we'll probably go to Starbucks, then i'll try to get him to come back to my house. i'd like that a lot.

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